By Deirdre Finnerty

BBC News


In the center of the final century, hundreds of scholars from African nations had been learning at Irish universities. Some had youngsters exterior marriage, who had been then positioned in considered one of Ireland’s infamous mom and child houses. Today these youngsters, now adults, are looking for their households.

As a baby, Conrad Bryan puzzled if his father was a king. He was from Nigeria – or so he had been advised – a spot Conrad imagined was much more thrilling than the orphanage exterior Dublin the place he lived.

“When you want something and you can’t have it, your imagination takes over,” he says.

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Despite his persistent questions, the nuns could not inform him something about his father’s household – or about kings in Nigeria. In Seventies Ireland, the one issues he discovered about African nations had been from the TV, or tales in regards to the black youngsters pictured on the charity bins individuals would donate cash to throughout Lent.

When a missionary priest who had returned from Nigeria got here to the orphanage, he spoke to Conrad, who was fascinated by his tales of Nigerian tribes. The priest advised the boy his father may not have been a king precisely, however a health care provider who studied in Ireland.

Conrad labored onerous at college and as he grew older longed to discover a job, in order that sooner or later he might afford to journey to Nigeria. The one element he had been advised about his father was his surname – Koza.

Conrad was born in Dublin in 1964 to an Irish single mom. He spent his adolescence in considered one of Ireland’s notorious Church-run, state-funded mom and child houses, St Patrick’s on the Navan Road. At that point, most single girls did not hold their youngsters. The stigma made it inconceivable to get a job or hire a flat, and there was no state assist obtainable for girls on this state of affairs.

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Conrad’s father was considered one of many African college students who had come to review in Dublin. In the Nineteen Sixties, the Irish authorities ran schemes supporting them in studying abilities that may assist them construct up their very own newly unbiased states. Most enrolled in Trinity College, University College Dublin, and the Royal College of Surgeons, learning topics like drugs, legislation, and authorities administration. By 1962, at the least 1,100 college students – or one tenth of Ireland’s scholar inhabitants – had been African, from nations like Nigeria, Ghana and South Africa, the place there have been robust hyperlinks with Irish missionaries.

By 1967, an Irish army faculty had accepted a delegation of Zambian cadets. “It’s natural… that Zambia’s young officials would be trained in a small independent country like Ireland, a country with no history of imperialism,” a TV information report stated on the time.

But the scholars weren’t at all times welcomed by the broader inhabitants. News articles reported assaults on African college students and talked about “difficult landladies” – a reference to housing discrimination, in line with Dr Bryan Fanning, writer of Migration and the Making of Ireland. Though a number of the college students had relationships with Irish girls, it was uncommon that these led to marriage within the tradition of the time.

Many of the kids from these relationships spent their early lives in mother-and-baby houses and had been positioned for adoption. Irish adoptions on the time had been carried out beneath a closed system – the place there isn’t a contact or sharing of knowledge between the adopted youngster and the pure dad and mom. To this present day, adopted individuals would not have a statutory proper to their adolescence information. Others, like Conrad, who weren’t adopted, had been transferred to orphanages. For a baby born exterior marriage, their father’s title wouldn’t sometimes have appeared on their beginning certificates.

Some have spent years making an attempt to find their heritage.

In the late Eighties, Conrad had grown bored with being known as names. There was an added stigma connected to the color of his pores and skin – individuals robotically assumed he had come from an orphanage. So he left Ireland for London, the place he discovered work in an accountancy agency.

But he nonetheless needed to take care of shocked appears to be like when he stated he was from Ireland.

“Being constantly reminded that you’re not Irish is painful,” he says. “I really struggled with that. I didn’t know what my background was.”

When he was in his 20s, Conrad determined to search for his household. A nun on the orphanage contacted an Irish social employee and ultimately, he received entry to extra of his private data. His father’s title was not on his beginning certificates, however on his data, it was listed as Joseph Conrad. There was no reference to the surname Koza.

The social employee contacted his mom, who shared what she knew. For 5 years, it was a irritating forwards and backwards between the social employee, the non secular orders, his mom and the Royal College of Surgeons (RCSI). Finally, he acquired a letter from the RCSI revealing his father’s full title – Dr Conrad Kanda Koza.

picture copyrightConrad Bryan

picture captionDr Conrad Kanda Koza (centre) – Conrad Bryan’s father

But there was extra. The letter confirmed that Conrad’s father was South African, not Nigerian, as he had been advised.

“That was a huge shock. I look back on it and think, ‘What a lie I had been living.'”

The subsequent steps of the search had been right down to him. He visited the British Library Newspaper Library in Colindale, north London, the place he discovered South African newspapers and even a South African telephone ebook. He then started cold-calling all of the Kozas listed as dwelling in Johannesburg. Eventually he received by way of to somebody who might assist him. Within per week, he acquired a telegram from a cousin, who put him in contact together with his father’s sister.

His father had handed away in London a few years beforehand, however the remainder of the household welcomed Conrad warmly.

“They looked at a photograph and they claimed me straight away. It was a great affirmation of who I am, and who I should have known I was.”

His aunt Thuli Koza visited him in London and gave him objects that had as soon as belonged to his father – his scholar card from the RCSI, and a letter he had written to the household in Zulu whereas dwelling in Ireland. Over beers within the evenings, she advised him in regards to the household’s historical past. At one level, they had been near South African political exiles in London.

He stored up with the household in South Africa, honeymooning there together with his new spouse and visiting usually after that.

“I missed so much growing up,” he says. “It’s not just about your father, it’s about your roots – your cousins, your uncles.

Many other mixed-race Irish people, however, are still searching for information, decades after leaving homes and institutions.


Outside a basement 20 yards from Dublin’s O’Connell Street – a busy thoroughfare lined with monuments to Irish independence – a handwritten sign points passers-by towards the Rapid Tailoring Alteration Service. The shop belongs to 79-year-old Jude Hughes, a tailor and long-standing anti-racism campaigner. For more than 30 years, Jude has sat in front of his machine altering garments, alongside photos of his children, and buttons stored in sweet containers.

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Like Conrad, Jude spent his early life in St Patrick’s mother and baby home. He was born on a spring day in 1941, to an unmarried machinist. His father, he would later be told, was from Trinidad. The rest of Jude’s childhood was spent in institutions – first in a convent, later in an industrial school. Growing up, he rarely saw another black person.

“You’d surprise why you were not like all of the others. There could be no clarification, and I’d be embarrassed.”

image copyrightJude Hughes

At 16, Jude trained as a tailor and went to work in Dublin. His ears pricked up every time he heard news on the radio about the civil rights movement in the US, or the achievements of black boxers like Joe Lewis. But the reality for him was being passed over for certain positions at work. In the early days, some customers in the tailoring shop avoided dealing with him.

“They’d see me and they’d freeze. Some would say, ‘Ah I believe I’m within the incorrect place.'”

Still, Jude carried on, brushing off racist comments in the street. “I received on with the enterprise of getting on with my life,” he says. He joined a band and played basketball. Later, as customers began to trust him, he set up his own business.

When his first son was born, Jude was desperate to share the good news, but he had no family members to ring, just the friends he had acquired over the years. As his son grew older, he started to ask questions. For a school project, he had to make a family tree, and Jude remembers the shame he felt at not being able to help him.

“There is no one you may say is a relation of yours.”

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Over the years, Jude watched from his shop as the city changed and faces like his own were more visible. In the 1980s, he became a founding member of one of the first anti-racism groups in Ireland. People of African descent greeted him on the street, claiming him as one of their own. But his own searches continued to yield little about his heritage. From his correspondence with the Irish authorities, he knew his mother’s name, her occupation, and the county she was from, but nothing about his father – no evidence that he was from Trinidad.

In 2015, the homes Jude and Conrad spent their early lives in became the subject of a government inquiry, the Mother and Baby Homes Commission of Investigation. The treatment of women and girls who gave birth there, high infant mortality rates, forced adoptions, and vaccine trials were all being investigated.

By then, Jude and Conrad were members of a group, the Association of Mixed-Race Irish (AMRI). The AMRI lobbied the government to examine the specific experiences of mixed-race people. Alongside their common experiences of racism and being cut off from their mixed-race identity, they asked for details about why it appears that mixed-race children were less likely to be adopted and more likely to be transferred to other institutions.

The government agreed to insert a clause requiring the commission to identify cases of racial discrimination in the homes.

Conrad and Jude, along with many others, submitted evidence about their experiences, and the final report will be published soon.

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image captionConrad Bryan and Jude Hughes

Now Conrad is helping Jude, and others looking for answers about their background.

An accountant and auditor by trade, Conrad was a whizz at spreadsheets and charts, uncovering things that people preferred to keep hidden. He has, however, encouraged people to first engage with social workers for support.

“People are so misplaced. It’s a part of the surprising story of misplaced identification and the disgrace of getting a black father.”

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Bridget – like the other arrivals – was told not to speak about her life outside.

All of them were given a different name. None of the girls had committed any crime. But they had two things in common.

They were all unmarried and they were all pregnant.

Conrad had also acquired a wealth of knowledge over the years. He discovered that there had been a great deal of media interest in the African students who studied in Ireland in the early decades of independence. He’d learned, too, about freedom of information requests, and how helpful the universities could be.

Another useful resource were ship passenger lists, and he had found out how African students had made the journey to Ireland. This is the sort of highly-specific information that Irish social workers would not be trained to find, and a combination of these sources had enabled him to successfully track down the Nigerian father of another member of the group.

In Jude’s case, he set up his family tree on By researching publicly available birth and marriage certificates, they found the town Jude’s mother was from, and some more information about her family. The charts revealed an unexpected biological relative for Jude – Conrad is a distant cousin on his mother’s side.

On his father’s side, they have worked with a genetic genealogist. DNA testing has revealed that Jude’s father is most likely Nigerian, not Trinidadian as he had been told. Inputting this information into Jude’s Ancestry chart, Conrad started to search for DNA relatives. A distant cousin has been tracked down and has agreed to a DNA test to help narrow things down.


Through their work with AMRI, Jude and Conrad continue to meet people much younger than them, who are only embarking on their search for their African heritage.

Marguerite Penrose was born in 1974, spending three years of her early life in St Patrick’s mother and baby home.

Marguerite’s experience, however, was different in some ways from that of Conrad and Jude.

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She was fostered, and eventually adopted, by a family in Dublin, with whom she enjoyed a happy childhood in the north of the city. She was surrounded by supportive extended family and many friends.

But as she got older she became increasingly aware of how different she was to others in her neighbourhood. She also spent long periods in hospital receiving operations for congenital scoliosis, and was frustrated that she couldn’t answer any questions about her medical history.

image copyrightMarguerite Penrose

“It’s one other full a part of your genetics that you recognize nothing about. As you grow old, it is crucial to know if there’s coronary heart illness, most cancers in your loved ones.”

When Marguerite’s adoptive family finalised her adoption in the early 90s, they received some background information – her natural mother’s surname, the area where she was from, and the fact that she has since remarried with other children. It confirmed what Marguerite had already been told about her natural father – that he was a cadet from Zambia, but his name or surname were not included.

For years, Marguerite wondered whether to begin a formal search but she had heard stories about the mother and baby homes, and about incorrect information that those who had been born there had been given.

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“I consider my beginning mom, and I believe, ‘God, what did she undergo? Did she willingly give me up? I do not know,'” she says. Last year, after another spell in hospital, she started the process with social workers to trace both of her natural parents.

“To get the solutions to the thousands and thousands of questions that spill round your head, it could imply the world.”

The final report into mother and baby homes will include survivor testimonies and a social history of the homes from 1922-1998. An apology to those affected is expected, and Conrad, Jude and Marguerite hope the government will acknowledge the specific experiences of mixed-race people.

“We’re telling our tales within the hope that the state will study from this. In the hope of defending the various minorities we’ve received now,” Conrad says.

Jude wants the government to provide funding and training for researchers to help others like him find their African origins.

“Denial of our background left an enormous void in lots of people’s lives. Some are terribly broken by what they went by way of.”

The Minister for Children, Roderic O’Gorman, has said he is “decided” to do right by survivors and adopted people, and is “dedicated to introducing laws to resolve the problems”.

But some remain sceptical things will change quickly. Most of the records collected as part of the commission will be sealed for 30 years, though a database that will assist with tracing and personal data requests will be transferred to the Irish authorities.

In the meantime, Jude is optimistic that with Conrad’s continued help he will get a result before his 80th birthday. And when his case is completed, Conrad will move on to the next one.

“It’s such a pleasure to assist individuals,” he says. “It offers you again one thing that you’ve got misplaced.”